Very similar to how our church started, I began writing in 2010 after God used a man named Tom Carpenter to inspire me. Tom was the custodian at Grace Fellowship for many years. In January 2010 he was diagnosed with terminal cancer and died a short three weeks later on February 16, 2010 at the age of 51.
This was a very moving experience for me, my family, and our church. Tom was always behind the scenes, always seemed to be at the church serving in some way, and was so familiar that he almost went unnoticed…until he wasn’t able to be there. Tom was single all his life and faithful in his service to the Lord. He was loved by all.
Our family visited Tom several times before He died and we would sing him Fighter Verse songs to encourage him, but I think he encouraged us more by how he handled his final days.
The families in our church rallied around Tom. We even threw him a Super Bowl party while he was in the hospital that was quite the logistical challenge of moving TVs, moving Tom and his bed in the lobby, and getting “approval” from the staff and security guards.
Before Tom died he wrote three CaringBridge posts that so moved me that I felt compelled to write myself. (I’ll post them in full on this blog in the future).
The first song I wrote was titled “Wretched Sinner Saved by Grace (Tom’s song).” Being my first attempt at songwriting, I must say it was definitely a “first attempt.” I’ll probably post those syllables to the blog one day as well.
Here’s a quote from Tom’s first post and why I chose the song title above:
“God will be with me in spirit and in faithful friends to encourage me, pray for me, and help me along the way, wherever it may lead. That way, that path, that road, if it leads to eternity with God, no matter how hard or difficult the journey may become, will be worth it if we keep our eyes on the author and finisher of our faith. I do not present myself as a source of great biblical wisdom, or a practitioner of prodigious faith. I am, at the heart of it, a wretched sinner saved by grace who is only worthy of God’s great mercy through the willing sacrifice of his son Jesus Christ.”
Below is another (longer) excerpt from Tom’s second post on not wasting time:
“I am also thankful for the time God has blessed me with. Time, however, is something I have often squandered in my life. There have been so many instances where I have not used time wisely. For the most part, I took time, a precious gift of God and used it selfishly to my own frivolous ends and purposes. God forgive me. None of us know how much time God will give us. What I have often failed to realize is that it is not my time at all. Time, like everything in this life, belongs to God. Of course, God is mindful of the time we must dedicate to our families and our livelihoods. God does not begrudge us time to take pleasure in this life He gives us.
Ultimately, however, we must realize that time in the here and now is finite. So let us spend more time with God. Then, however many seconds, minutes, hours, days, weeks, months or years God may give us, that time will be blessed and not wasted.”
I’ve since spent many hours with God, digging in His Word, writing syllables of grace and shedding tears because of His overwhelming greatness. I pray that these syllables will long out live me, but if not, it’s been time well spent with God.